Balance

Interesting how the pendulum of change is ever swinging. It has been a long time since I have had anything meaningful to do with music. In fact I was sick of it, done. Just as I was sick of teaching. However, a hook always remained in my soul, occasionally tugged on by people have been dear to me for a long, long time.

During our time in Phoenix, a few musical things came out, in slow erratic and tortured, tiny advances.

The video below was one of the better examples...it was actually a complimentary effort with the disciplines I was learning at MMI. It was the first time I had truly embraced the ideas of Kenny Werner and his "Effortless Mastery" techniques. Although simple in technique the piece was worked through slowly and carefully and with something burning to be said. Listening to it a year later is has, for me, power and meaning.

But I digress, as I was saying the last few years I have been obsessed with motorcycles and travel and writing and once again fame. Now, working long hours at Santa Fe BMW Motorcycles I feel my life being absorbed by a life I am finding less and less attractive.

After two years of the agony of cognitive dissonance between exactly what course of action to take, i.e. travel writing or music.  With limited time available it seems like I can pursue only one in addition to my work duties.

It seems, however, that the time has come to pursue music once again after all.   I am guided in in this preliminary assessment by the evidence that a tiny bit of energy put forward in the direction of music recently (See previous post) has brought some more opportunities.  Getting ready for this next opportunity has taken most of my energy for the last few days, including most of my precious weekend and I am already feeling on the edge of burnout.   This new enthusiasm for music is therefore fragile and requires me to proceed with balance.

Not my strongest suit, but I will keep you posted